l o v e

it's 2:08! =DDD

i nearly lost my phone ytd at nanyang choral nite, which is now a competition-styled and ticketed concert renamed Drama Fest yes imagine my disgust -__________-

two juniors helped me safekeep my phone (which i stupidly left on the bench aft dinner) and they found me in the audi! what wonderful nice juniors, i'm so proud of them!! thank you!! =DDD i dun even know them. i think they're from np. at least i think one of them is.

see, that's what nanyang girls do. if it happened in hwach, kiss goodbye to my phone man.

which reminds me. there's this msg posted on smb abt a lost thumbdrive:

"...You can pass the thumbdrive to Mrs Toh (in Ed Tech staffroom - B219), college reception lost and found corner or call this no (91889449 - Seow Hwee).

If you like the thumbdrive, you can burn the information into a DVD and ask the college reception to pass the DVD to me.

Thank you.

Regards,
Mrs Toh-Lim Siew Yee"


JUST WHAT THE SHIT IS THE SCHOOL TEACHING US. seriously. i feel like calling the new paper or smth. wow, so much for character ruggedly fine.

my dearest juniors, pls don't lose yourself when you come over.

ah. met up with Tang that day, with some seniors. we are really the last 'descendants' of Tang's era hahah! wasnt really in the appropriate mood to document whatever happened. have been revising quite a bit of my TCN life recently. not just meeting Tang but elections, vising juniors, crewing etc etc. it's pretty cool. to see the change, to feel the change. hmm. moving on(?)

yeah Tang's still the same. his Tang tone, his not-very-funny-jokes, his latest gadget obsession, and should i say, the spark in him? he said he visited chen lili laoshi some time earlier and he thinks she has lost hers. hmm haven't seen her in quite a while but yes, i'd say she's tired. compared to the chen laoshi i knew in sec 1, she's tired. perhaps it's got nothing to do with her age. (she's nearly 50 odd omg!) and why does that sound familiar. maybe i've lost the fire too? i think i'm becoming a boring person. hmm that doesnt good. i dun think anyone sees me bouncing around in class or anything of the same high-ness. or maybe that's just my class. hahah. =(

but it's good to catch up with the seniors! even tho we were mostly listening to their uni applications, other seniors' lives and stalking ppl on facebook etc.  hahahah and it's a little bit funny, to be the youngest. like reliving something all over again.

elections was cool. the circle that the club made was.. big(ger) =D it's great to see the fire being passed down. perhaps in diff forms hahha but i still take great pride in TCN and really hope the juniors would, too. disappointing to spot absentees in a certain batch but yes. new batch, new generation, new chapter to write.. let's just say it's gonna be interesting to see how the sec 3s can lead the club in the coming year =) i've got great faith in you guys! ( go go juniors! )
it is a little overwhelming, should i say.. to be back. all the excitement and craziness for the elections is to a certain level, superficial. deep down i think all of us have this unexplainable pride and overwhelming emotions building up. for me at least. sometimes i really dunno what to say or do. it seems right just to sit there and watch, and absorb whatever's going on. wish i could have stayed that day but ah, new commitments =)

one day we'll shd a Nick Ng (or not) catching up session.

and we will be the oldest batch there.

YING CI CHOO TURNED SEVENTEEN on March 24th!! big thanks to all you sweet dearies who remembered and all the text messages / online messages / facebook messages!! and of course, nothing beats a birthday greeting face to face plus a great big hug! x))) thank you all, for making yesterday so absolutely awesome! i feel so loved! =DD

( photos! )

I Don't Know You Anymore
-Savage Garden

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda, don't stop
Keep that chin up, you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face

[ www.azlyrics.com ]


Lost Without You
-Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
You might say a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
Don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind


[ www.elyrics.net ]

this version is still the best:
(even though Darren Hayes looks constipated most of the time)

but they're both awesome. Delta Goodrem is a cancer survivor =O how cool is that!

hahaha, quote of the day. too many things happened today! and i've been rather nuah the entire day D=

#1. ahhhh i'm so sorry gina ng!! >< >< ><
#2. release of o's results -.- i feel like retaking. is it possible? yes right?
#3. went island creamery aft that with brudder twee kang and batchies. first thing we saw when we alighted was this girl crying her lungs out at the bus stop. so kelian. i think sec four is a very tough year for the o's ppl! =( first u study like mad for the entire year then u take prelims and  the tchers stress u out then spa then the freaking exams! D= and aft that the release of results D= my gosh the anticipation could have killed.
#4. saw farhanna at the macs! its been ages since i saw her. that girl was totally hopping and squealing away xD her results were damn awesome =D congrats yo! hahah so far everyone seemed to have done pretty well in o's =D i dunno where i'll end up in if i took o's. hahaha thats a scary thought.
#5. hippo's got a girlfriend - hippress! she's got sexy lips =DD aiyah, zongbin cannot fight lah.
#6. randomly decided to go queensway with kang and batchies. concluded that pingping was drunk xDD everyone took turns to go bonkers hahah
#7. oh very important. hanfanjingfing condemned pink openly! hahah!
#8. one thing that made me smile today - receiving the letters from hope home children! =DDDDDDDDDD yayyye. i do hope aunty su was in sch today to talk abt further plans for collaboration like what rhino said =D even if itwasnt, 2010 is coming! =D





and i'm sorry my grades were not good enough to be a decent birthday present, daddy.

hahah i feel happier today. greater chances of not holding inspire theatre concert in hwachong audi hahha. and gonna be back at keming to tutor ms kho's kids xD its good to be busy. keeps ur mind off certain things x)

my phone is still missing tho =(

but its okay. to get more one must forgo some. yes. maybe i'll live longer or smth. oohhhh WOAH gen's applying for lighting design in uni omg how cool is that!!!! awesome man =DDDDD makes me feel like doing theatre again x) ahh. i miss doing productions. i miss being a sec one saigang crew hahah

speaking of which.. cca concert this year is quite bad =( generally. the fdr on friday was a major disappointment and for some, the real show was like unbelievably horrible. okay i feel quite mean to say this but there was alot of problems on av's side. np's video was all wrong and theatre's curtains -.- late for half a minute plus some other minor slips. i've got nth against them but i'm saying this because i was disappointed. and i'm disappointed because i had high expectations. mr k's gonna leave and i'm just kinda worried for them =( dun want them to end up like theatre.
sigh. nanyang's standard of.. everything is dropping like mad. i guess having all the new teachers didnt help and the red hongbao falling flat on her knees on the first day of sch isnt exactly a good sign.

as for theatre.. hahah. two words: murphy's law. maybe its inevitable that a downhill ride will come after the peak. maybe its just a senior thing that nothing the juniors do seem to be right or up to the mark. yeah maybe they're doing fine if we're more objective or smth. maybe.

but all we're trying to do is to keep the standard that we once thought we had. the reason why we're still holding on is because it has been good for us and we want them to have the same experience. the same attitude of making things happen instead of waiting for things to happen, the same pride for the club, the same i-worked-my-ass-off-but-now-i-think-it-was-all-worth-it-experience. and that, perhaps, would be difficult because they're from a different generation, or whatever crap excuses one can come up with. all i can say is that my batch's very blessed to have been under the guidance of two very different instructors and influenced by the best seniors (in and out of the club), accompanied by those uhh, who serve as counter examples. oh well. its time to let go, i think. let them learn to swim in the deep end of the pool... and hopefully superstars won't have descendants.

...

oh what am i thinking. how will that ever be possible. i just hope i don't live to see such a big screw up again.

on a happier note, there were the others who kept their standard, of course. good for them =D and the sec ones are so cute; they applauded (rather loudly) at every opportunity they can. and they're not as small as we thought! it was fun crashing on the first day though =DD i should stop going back. makes me dread jc even more =(

ARGH i knew it.

i knew smth bad was going to happen when it blacked out a couple of times. i should have sent it for repair or smth. would have been safer. crappppp. and i was just saying i hadnt lost a phone before.

ohmygoshhhh all my contacts and stuff! arghhhhhh. first the comp stuffs got wiped out and now this. what a great way to start the year =(

and the cca concert didnt exactly lift my spirits.

bye bye phone.. bye bye kitty (i think only han will miss u xD)

hahah okay since i promised someone that i'll use this soon. hmmmm. okay i just remembered its supposed to be a new year post. hahah. -.^ okay aft editng it wont be on time anymore hhaah ok i'm being bombarded on msn i'll return next time to talk abt handoverclassgatheringcomp'sdeath and umm. random stuff =D

happy new year, ppl! someone texted me, 'keep ur resolutions'.. hahaha. hmm. i'll try.